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I got my reinstatment letter today. THEY are going to let me back in for spring, as long as I get a 2.0 for spring. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy. it is going to be hard work, but I WILL make it work

Folsom was fun. I am glad that I made the effort to drive up on Friday night. I really enjoy waking up on Saturday morning at site. there is something about it that puts me in the right frame of mind.
Saturday felt like we were in a giant bathroom in which someone has just taken a shower. everything was very sticky.
Sunday was even better, the weather cooled off, and no more stickiness. lovely knighting, I teared up a little bit. good load, no crushing of people in the truck. and we were finished by 7:30.
all in all, it was a good end to this season.

it is raining, and I am SOOOOOO happy about it. I love the rain. I love the sound it makes i my back yard. I love the smell of it. I love the moisture in the air. I love the fact that I always sleep better when it rains. this day is shaping up to be pretty good.

Job-I currently have two jobs, one will only last a month, but it is full time. It only pays minimum wage, but it is better than nothing. The other is only part time but is paying far better. I plan on keeping it when I am in school. Every little bit helps.

School- I got the classes I need for fall at the SRJC. But I need to talk to someone about the reinstatement in the spring. They are not admitting anyone in the spring, and I hope this does not apply to me. I don’t think it does because I don’t have to reapply for admission, but I still want to talk to some one to confirm.

Money- we are living day to day right now.

Sewing/knitting- I am really enjoying my sewing right now, but I don’t have a lot of time for it. I am currently finishing a jacket for my mom and the wedding dress continues apace. I am knitting a pair of “no-heel” socks for the Sock Summit they are holding in august. They have created a museum of past and current socks, and I volunteered to knit a pair. They are going really fast, so I think they will be done by the deadline.

Personal health- not so good I gained some weight over the past semester, mostly because I wasn’t really paying attention. It is really easy to eat bad for cheap and fast. Trying to cut out High Fructose Corn Syrup.

Garden- Lots of Zucchini, a few tomatoes, some garlic, onions, and shallots.

I am in Ohio, visiting my grandparents. I get a call from Shawn last night and he tells me that SSU has put me on Academic Disqualification. they say my GPA is 1.3 and it needs to be a 2.0 or something to stay in school. I have been dropped from all of my classes. This makes no sence to me because I did fine this last semester and was looking forward to my fall classes.

It turns out that the semester that I did very poorly on THREE YEARS AGO is causing my problem now. They never gave me a problem then, in fact I never received anything to indicate it was a problem. why didn't they tell me at the beginning of my semester, you know, when I was first back in school, rather than now, when I have already completed a semester.

It makes me so mad, and I can't really do anything about it as long as I am Ohio. I will be coming back on Monday. but I feel so depressed. I finally figure out what it is I wanted to do, and was getting into the swing of it and I get this bomb dropped on me. It is very disheartening. I am going to try to get reinstated for fall, which I think I should be able to do because I have a semester where my grades are good. But I don't know if I will be able to get back in to any of the classes that I was in. everything is so impacted that I will have to crash all my classes and there is very little chance that the CHEM class will let me in.

Plus on top of this, Shawn and I are really hurting for money. we have both been searching for jobs and sending out resumes every day. but to no avail. I drought we have the money to last the next month, let alone through fall, certainly we won't last if I don't get my student loan money. and I won't get it if I am not in classes the first week of school.

I really don't know what we are going to do. we have reduced and reduced what we spend. I really can see no way out. This is no me asking for money, this is me very upset about being unable to do anything about what is happening to us. I have tried to make money through sewing and all my other skills. part of me feels like there is no point. Why try when the world clearly doesn't want us to be successful.

please, send me all of your good thoughts
R

ok so
I am gearing up for school, this was my first week at SSU, and my third at SRJC. I have been forced to take my chem class at the JC because I couldn't get in to the one at SSU. This is ok because shawn is taking classes on the same day, so I am rideing with him. The class transfers directly, so I can take the second half inthe fall at SSU. But it is a pain, beause I means that I have to take 12units and SSU, plus the 5units at the JC. I am going to be doing alot of homework.
a 4unit bio class
a 5unit chem class
a 4unit pols class
a 3unit antro class
a 1unit PE class(scuba)
a 1unit lecture series(no home work)
all in all, it is going to be a busy semster, but I think I can do it.

I planted four trees in the first part of Januray, a cherry,a peach, and two apples.
plus rasberries. I have planns for the garden area, but I need to get a rototiller, either rent one or find some one who would help me with one. I will take a whole day to just get rid of the bermuda grass that has infested the area, and another day to put down the beds again and refill them. I am hopeing I will have a saturday soon to do it. I would like to get it done before the end of march. we will see

still sewing, At the moment I am working a coat for one of my roommates, and I am in the beginning stages of altering a pattern for a wedding dress. the wedding is in augest, so I have time, but I would like to get it done sooner than later.
I am looking forward to going to the silk shop, even if I don't buy anything.
I am also looking forward to going to Stiches West, I have alittle bit a money saved, my yarn budget. I would like to get a wheel, but I don't know if I will be able to afford one, we will see. If I could find one that would work for faire, that would be cool. I don't have a lot of skill with the spinder, but I liked the wheel spinning I tried, we will see how things work out.

I am doing well, I have decied to go back to weight watchers. I have had lasting sucess with them in that past. It is alot of effort to keep track of everything I eat every day, but it worked for me. So I think it is a good bet. I would like to get down to 170lbs, that is my final goal, I have a long way to go. it helps to have a set time when I can eat, rather them eating when I am bord and have nothing to do.

that is it for now
R

This Room Is CLEAN!!!!!

all right
I don't have to move to Canda
plus, I like lisening to him talk
he has a good speech writer, and is a good talker

It is raining
I have been wishing/hopeing that it would rain,
I LOVE the rain, and I hope it is a long wet winter

* Grab the nearest book.

* Open the book to page 56.

* Find the fifth sentence.

* Post the text of the next two to five sentences in your journal along with these instructions.

* Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

" This morning the window contains three inferior Swiss mechanicals, their dials flecked with age, an IXL double penknife with jigged bone handles and shield, fair condition, and a East German military feild telephone that looked at though it has been designed not only to survive a Nuclear explosion but to functions during one.
Fontaine, still on the morning's first coffee, stares down, through the glass, at the matted, spiky hair."

OOOHHKK, So

Faire was really fun, even if it was very wet and a bit windy
I got both wind burn and sun burn, which although I know is totaly possible with no sun actully showing, still seems really weird.
I have lost enough weight that both sides of my bodice touch, I am glad I have a bit extra gray left. After faire season is over, I will probley be makeing a new one. so maybe my bodice will be added to the many loner-grays that already exist. althought I have such a long back, I don't know if anybody will fit it confortabuly.
shawn and I are in a waiting game, waiting to see if he gets his student loans. If he does, then the bills will al be paied and we will do fine. If he doesn't, then there will be no school for him or I till at least spring. I know I will get at least Student loans for the spring, and maybe grants too. The problem is that they are still looking at our joint tax returns from last year, and the first half of last year, shawn had a VERY good job. So I know next year, when we use this years returns, there will be no problem, BUT till then things suck.
On the plus side, I just got not one but Two jobs.
A night time Aupair job, I get 800$ a month to watch TV, Knit, Sleep and get the three kids to school. the only draw-back is that I don't sleep at home for five nights a week, so I miss shawn and don't sleep as well as I might.
Job two is once again at JoAnn's, But I can't really see a problem with this. The only reason I didn't keep that job before is that I have trouble standing for long periods of time and it doesn't pay as well as I would like. BUT, the Manager is Full of Win. She knows about my standing thing, and will only have me work 6 hours a day. I really like working there, I get to fondle fabric all day and talk to people about crafts and sewing and yarn. I can't help but like it.
Plus I am still doing sewing for people,
I have one wedding related dress which I just finished the final Mock-Up. Time to get into the good fabric
I have a wedding dress, and other asessorys for a wedding NEXT year. But I am going to Britexs this comming saturday for fabric shopping.
Plus stuff for guild people

I hate needing money,I feel like I am useing up all my time makeing money and I will have no free time to spend said money. BUT depts suck, so maybe it is a good thing that I will have no time to spend money. I guess I have enough yarn to play with for the fall.
I just hope that shawn does get his student loans, that way we won't have to worry about bills.

that is all for now
R
I

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

--Rudyard Kipling

With all the strugging my kith and kin are goint thur I just needed to post this

I GOT TO FEED A PONY, SQUEE. I cannot sum everything up so well as others. But I finally don't feel like a stranger. I have a long way to go to know everybody as well as I would like, but a good start was made. I found a kindred-spirit. I played with no fear of rejections. I drank Pink and loved it. I learned the yard break down and was called a minion. No sleep and no regrets. This may become my favorite faire.

I have three weeks left of school, and things are really dragging. I am doing a great deal of thinking about Why it is I want to be a nurse and what it is I would do when I get my RN. I have a big choice to make, and no one can make it but me. GRRR

I did not go to school yesterday, but I didn’t miss as much as I thought I would. I have a test tomorrow and I feel pretty good about it.
My tomatoes have little green fruits on them. So my worry that they would have nothing to transfer the pollen was for naught.
I never realize how much I miss my Shawn till I go and come back. He does make me happy.
Sewing continuers apace, Always more to do then time to do it in.
I am now looking in earnest for a job, any job for when my classes end.
That is all for now
R

I think this means I am the queens Bishop

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Today was NOT a good day. It was a bad day
I am worried about how I am going to do on the test on Wednesday. I had my dissection today, which went fine, but not great. But the real problem was that I had a meeting with the financial aid lady today.
I was told in NO uncertain terms that I will NOT be receiving ANY money, grants or loans, as I have too many units. It is true that I have been going to school since 1999, but I have never gotten any aid from them before.
It was not a good day
I thought thing were looking up, as I have plenty of classes that transfer, I can just Transfer to Sonoma State and get a BSN rather then just an RN. But no, they are not accepting any applications for fall, the soonest I can transfer is spring. This is not really a bad thing, as spring 2009 is only 6 month away. But is does mean that I will have to get a job for fall and go to school as well.
I know I sound like a fool. Everybody has to work; I am not alone in the need of money when I am in school. I was just hopping that I could get ahead of my bills, but this means we will be once again getting deeper in the hole rather then out of it. I feel very overwhelmed, and out of my depth.
I am running as fast as I can, and slowing slipping backward.
It didn’t help that human fat looks like chicken; I don’t really want to eat chicken anymore.

Feeling ill and worried
R

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ x] closed spaces(didn't know thqt until we went caving)
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 2

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire (only of my house burning down)
[x ] deep water (dark water-i have no fear of drowning, i float, but only what is in the water)
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean - It isn't the ocean that scares me, just the fucking sharks.
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's/spouse's dad
[ ] boyfriend's/girlfriend's/spouse's mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 3

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed (worked in a bank too long)
[ ] falling
[X] clowns
[ ] dolls - If they're creepy
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes

Total so far: 4

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks - Fuck 'em!
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up

Total so far: 4

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat (what????)
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets

Total: 4

I can't say that I am fearless, but there are only a few things that really freak me out, and a couple of them aren't on here.

... if you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it "I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears"

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or fewer, you’re fearless

I am currently waiting for 2:45 to roll around; I have ANOTHER Emergency dental visit. I was forced to take a Vicodin last night. I was woken up with horrible pain in my back top left tooth. It has been bothering me, but I thought I had figured it out: but evidently not. It is just the same kind of pain I had when I had to have to root canal, but I don’t’ have dental insurance this time. So I REALLY hope it is not that. My normal dentist is out of town, so I will be going to the one Shawn has been using. He said he was ok, but it does mean that I will have to explain about my nerve thing all over again, and he may not believe me. I hate getting any kind of new medical person. You always have to explain about any personal quirks you have, and half the time they don’t believe you.

I had a very nice night with friends, and was told exciting news. It means my kitting/crocheting/sewing plans will be some what altered for a bit, but I am looking forward to it.

Shawn and I are starting school Monday, 16th. I am really looking forward to taking my classes, but we are really going to be struggling with paying for everything till our student loans comes which should be in September. So I am both excited and stressed out.

Currently I have several projects that I am working on for people. I have a vest for my roommate, which only needs buttons. I have a doublet, which I will finally be finishing for a friend. I have an arming doublet, which is in the first stage (mock up) and is waiting for a fitting so I can continue. Plus I am doing a wedding. The wedding is not till August 2009, but it does mean that I get to go to Britex fabrics, which I ALWAYS enjoy. I am hoping to pick up a few more sewing jobs this summer: Every little bit counts.

I have taken a brake from socks for a bit. The last sock I knitted did not turn out how I wanted so that yarn is having a TIME OUT. But I am almost finished with a racer-back shirt in rust/orange cotton. It will be great when the weather turns really hot. But I can’t wear a bra with it, so there will be a limited amount of places that I will be able to wear it. I have started on some squares for Doctors Without Borders charity Afghan thru one of the groups I am in on Ravelry. It seemed like a good way to use up my left over sock yarn.

I have planted Heirloom tomatoes, cucumbers, and basil in my garden. The Tomatoes have already doubled in size. I am hoping I will get lots this year. Plus I want to make pickles with the cucumbers if there is enough.

R

SQUEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Your results:
You are An Expendable Character (Redshirt)

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